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Pain Diary
Wednesday, April 6
Thank you to jgens and Dr. Towfigh for your compassion.
Woke up at 9:00am this morning and went to work. The pain was immediately present upon waking, which usually does not happen. I tried my best to be productive, but it’s very difficult. My new boss seems to think I’m faking my discomfort, which is disheartening because I’m suffering beyond words and was such a tireless worker before this happened to me. It is easy to look at me and think that everything is OK. Wasn’t able to make it to the gym today unfortunately.
I am trying to have hope, but I don’t understand why I have to wait so long to get help. Surgery is the only thing that will fix this, but why can’t I have it now? Every day I suffer with this is a lost day of life. Tomorrow will be lost, as will the next day, as will the next day, and the day after that. Why isn’t my suffering a priority to anyone? After I am gone, people will say “We shoud have acted sooner.”
Goodnight, diary.
